So, it's December. Wow, huh? This has been one of the fastest years of my life. Scary... some of you might be proud to know that I have had my first successful monday through friday this week. I hit the gym nice and hard Mon, Tues, and Weds. Couldn't on Thurs (yesterday) cuz I had a blood draw for Pracs and we can't do that the day before unless we want to have a REPEAT draw if our liver enzymes are outta whack...and I don't want to drive 5 more hours there AND back if I can avoid it. But...I will be hitting the gym tonight (after a nap). I haven't slept since Wednesday night, and 2 energy drinks later I'm losing my second wind. Last weekend I caved and did badly. Chocolate chip cookies called out to me, not gonna lie. And they were delicious. I KNOW I should ignore the cravings, but sometimes I just don't care. That brings me back to the comfort level thing. I look at my body and say, "who cares if I eat bad today? If i gain a pound or two I'll still look the same, so who cares" and BAM then i eat bad for a couple days straight and gain 5-6 and then spend the next week correcting it. (as i've been doing this week.) I woke up on Monday weighing in at 153.something...this is after being 146 just a couple days before. Here I am 5 whole days later of eating super clean and working out and I'm still 147.8. Oh well, can't change it now, but it's good to know that i DONT want all my hard work to go undone. If i were to eat bad THIS weekend ALL my hard work NOT eating bad and being at the gym for 2 hours this week would've been for NOTHING...so that'll motivate me to not be a jackass. Hopefully. LOL.
Nah, I think i'm good now. I got 2 dozen krispie kreme donuts today (glazed original are DELICIOUS) and I gave them to my inlaws when they watched the kids for me during my return draw. Then I gave some to Shane to give to his work people. It feels better to give OTHERS bad food more than it does to give to myself. I KNOW if I'd of eated a donut I'd of been annoyed at myself immediately afterwards and then probably thrown away the whole weekend. I didn't, I survived the temptation AND I feel good about it. Hopefully that's enough to pull me through the weekend. lol. Okay, i'm tired and going on and on about who knows what cuz I'm SOOO tired it's like being drunk for me. Have a great weekend everyone.
Ash

weight: 147.8

So, as John told me a LONG time ago and was CORRECT, the more I write on here the more diligent and smart about my food choices I am. Today will be my 3rd day straight of eating healthy and working out. Woo....hooo. lol. I notice that I'm GREAT from waking up til about 5pm. I won't even eat a BITE of something that I think is "bad food". Then this OTHER side of me kicks in and thinks it's a big free-for-all. It's really hard to get into the right mentality at night for some reason. If anyone has any suggestions for that would be great. It's from about 5-10pm that I get all the cravings. And it's not because I'm NOT eating enough throughout the day, because I am. Urg. Well, hopefully I'll be successful again tonight at eating my healthy chicken/turkey/or salad. Whatever it is.
Okay, well, nothing new from me, I guess. Hope everyone has a safe and fun weekend!
Ash

weight: 146.0

goal by Dec. 6: 143- 3 lbs to go

Well, I know it's been over a month now with me writing ZERO. While in Pracs I did try a couple of times, but my internet connection there was so crappy that by the time I'd hit "post" I'd get a page that said "internet explorer cannot display the page", that was ANNOYING.
Well, I'm through with Pracs, I still have to drive that crazy 5 hour trip one more time NEXT Friday to do all my follow up visits and stuff. I didn't lose "alot" in Pracs, but it did jumpstart me, so that's good! Right when I came back, we celebrated John's bday and saw the movie "bee movie" so that horrible movie theater popcorn lured me in. Also, right when I got out of Pracs I stayed a night with my sister and we had a girls night out (which involved yummy food and stuff....) Then I ate well until Thanksgiving and that wasn't as BAD as it could've been, but looking back, I could've made healthier choices. THEN, I was off in the state capital for the weekend for Christmas shopping and basically just a weekend of fun, and THAT was where I ate the most. But...considering all that and here it is a week later and I'm trying to get into the gym routine AND I've eaten well the last couple of days, I'm hoping that I can hang on and just push through. Another thing that tries to hamper my ability to lose weight is the "comfort" issue. Right now, mid-140s I have all these clothes that fit and I'm used to how I look like this. 10 lbs smaller and I don't have as many clothes and 20 lbs smaller, I don't think I have any. (which would be a fun excuse for a shopping spree)...but still. Who knows? I feel like RIGHT NOW I have a large amount of ambition but I know I've written those very words many, many times....so I'll just go with the flow. As of right now, I'm doing great. Hopefully tomorrow, I'm still doing great. :)
Ashley

weight: 146.2

I'm going to do a one week goal (Dec. 6). 143, I think I can hit that easily because I'm hitting the gym this week for the 1st time in a month, AND I'm eating really clean.

Okay. So in the last couple weeks a few things about my life have changed. i'm no longer doing a 1 week long Pracs study, I plan to do one that's almost 3 weeks long (lots of $$). This means I will be unable to do anything for Halloween, which is ok. I've come to terms with that. It will suck that I won't be able to take my kids trick-or-treating, but other than that, it's just more stress that I don't have to deal with.
Another thing. I started a body challenge. Two of them actually. I have one going with my parents, but it's a little disjointed because they don't really seem into it and haven't been doing the weigh-ins. lol. But I have another one with someone else, and I'm really excited because I do much better in a "competition view-point". Our competition lasts until New Years and by then I'd LOVE to hit 129. Just to say I'm in the "120s" maybe it's a girl thing, but it's a big goal I'd love to reach.
This past week I ate healthy the first half and then family and friends visiting on the weekend (and my first time making puppy chow...uh, YUM) I was TOO gluttonous (word?) and now I'm paying for it. But, I'm okay because it only goes down from here! I had a KILLER work-out yesterday where I pushed myself really hard. Did great cardio and then 30 minutes of strength training. I check-in to Pracs on Monday and I won't be eating bad (it's a normal food study)..so I should lose a few lbs in there too.
Good luck to me! Have a great day. I'm off to the...GYM! :)
ash

Starting competition weight (10/23/07): 151.0

Current weight: 150.4

Goal for competition (10 weeks): 22 more lbs

So, i was doing fine and then the weekend came, and i got a little off track. Nothing crazy. I just need to refocus, YET AGAIN. lol. It's all cool though, cuz I might be having a challenge coming up here, and those type of things push me to past my lazier ways.
The only reason I'm being so lax on myself is because I'm at a weight where I look "ok", I don't feel "fat" and things are "fine." I always seem to stop short of my goals, where in this instance would be looking "great", feeling "healthy" and things would be "awesome." Which...if I got more toned and dropped some more pounds: that would all happen.
Ugh, getting motivation is annoying. lol.
On a slightly related note, today I was doing dishes. One of the things I got a bit indulgent in this weekend was making homemade cinnamon rolls. They tasted good, and it was a fun experiment I've been wanting to do for awhile, so when the craving came I went for it. Anyway...to the point, I noticed that the plate the rolls had been sitting on that had all the ooey, gooey caramel icing on it was a bitch to wipe down. I could've used a hard sponge, but instead I held it under steaming hot water to see how long it would take to melt down and get off the plate.
Awhile.
Now, this made me think of my body, my arteries, my stomach. When that sugar is in my body, that's how hard my body has to work to burn it off. Sugar sucks! I already wasn't a big fan of it when I try to eat healthy, but seeing what I saw made me a little more anti-sugar. lol. So...for anyone who is interested, I've done great today. Ate healthy, feeling good. Plan to workout when the kids go to bed. Today's a good day.
Okay, hope everyone else had a good day as well. :)
ash

weight: 148

lbs to hit goal: 9