So, I got bad news today. I had a message waiting on my voicemail that for my next Pracs study we must eat EVERYTHING. I was SOOOOO bummed. I'm even thinking of not doing the study. It's just such good money... If Pracs didn't serve meals that were about 5000 calories a day it wouldn't be so bad, but they give you WAY too much. So, there I'd be eating too much AND not working out...that will suck.
Oh well, what can I really do about it? It's basically a decision of will I let myself gain a few pounds in Pracs for a few thousand dollars? That's the question I'm really reeling with. Boo that...
Aside from that, not much else is new. Hit the gym good and hard today, bout to go strength train right now and watch some project runway. Happy humpday!
Ash

weight: 145

unsure of goal since i'll probably be gaining next week. :(

Well, I get to make a new goal, since I hit my last one. That's always good. It's also really good to be back in the mid-140s since here I feel a little more comfy, but this time I won't get complacent! I'm actually excited to hit the gym today. I downloaded some new songs on my mp3 and want to see how much I can run today. It should be fun...
I check into Pracs this Saturday, so instead of waiting to weigh-in til next Tuesday, I'll do it on Saturday. I'm not sure of the types of food I'll be eating there. Usually I ask, but this time it slipped my mind. Guess I'll find out shortly.
I'm in the middle of the first month of the year and still doing great. I didn't hit the gym much in the last few days, but aside from that I've been doing well. It should only get better! Oh, and something exciting for me?? If I lose ONLY 10 lbs, I'll be smaller than I've been since I don't even remember when. Smallest I got last year was 136.4- so to lose ten pounds from right now would be less than that. :) Here I come. :)
Ash

weight: 145.6

mini-goal: 144 (weigh in on Saturday, we'll see what happens.)

So, I am SOOOOO proud of myself that I can't even put it into words. I was good this weekend. I went and saw a movie and didn't have popcorn!!!! PLUS, I was offered pizza, (said popcorn), soda, chinese, nachos, and I did GREAT! I brought fruit with me on my little road trip and that night for dinner had Pita Pit. (that place is delicious!) I got through some obstacles I was worried about, and now I know if I can do it with my best friend telling me she'll buy us both a pizza and get me some popcorn, then I'm GOOD! lol
So....still waiting til Tuesday to weigh in. This may be the longest I've waited from weighing myself in a LONG time. I don't think I'll have dropped alot by Tuesday, But hopefully a lb or two JUST for the fact that I didn't have bad food! lol
So, I'm throwing in some pics of us Fri night hanging out. Hope everyone is having a great weekend...I am!
Ash

weight: ? (know on Tuesday)

So, it's Thursday, Jan. 10th. For the 1st week and 1/2 of this month (or year) I've done great. Today is no exception. Now, today I can't hit the gym and the fact that I'm bummed about that shows me that I'm back into a habit. I screen tomorrow for Pracs, so you shouldn't do physical activity the day before, otherwise you chance your blood tests being abnormal and I don't want to drive out there AGAIN to just get another blood test (3 and 1/2 hour drive...).
It's all good though, if Shane still wants to hit the gym today (he's been training for his annual physical) then I'll just slowly walk the whole time. I'll still burn a couple hundres calories (nowhere near what I like to burn!) but anything is always better than nothing...
So, tomorrow I head off to Grand Forks and Nicole doesn't get off work until 5, which is good so I have plenty of time to hit the gym, so that works. :)
Then I come back on Saturday, and I'm actually going to come back IN gym clothes and tell Shane to have the kids ready to go to the gym and if he says 'no', then I'll go on my own. (that's my way of making sure it happens!).
So, all is going well-planned. Only thing I haven't figured out yet is what to eat tomorrow. I'm hitting the grocery store tonight again, so I'll probably pick up some healthy snacks for the road trip. OH! And guess what??? So, Shane's b-day is in 2 weeks and usually I go all out with cake, or cupcakes, or cookies or ALL of them! lol, BUT for this year, I am going to make an angel food cake! They're fat free and the way I make them it's tasty AND low cal (thanks for the inspiration there mom)
I'll let you know how that goes, but like I said, that's 2 weeks away. Wow, I'll be probably low 140s for his b-day...that feels good. Then even smaller on Valentines Day. Neat... hehe.
Okay, love you all, hope all is going well,
Ash

weight: ? (but shane said i looked slim today AND I feel great, I'll KNOW on Tuesday!)

This morning I woke up to weigh myself, like I do pretty much every morning, and my scale was gone.
Shane FINALLY took it away from me. See, I'd been complaining how he should hide it from me for awhile now. Eventhough I'll do really great (like lately) and eat clean and workout hard, when I find a gain or NO loss, I get really discouraged. I KNOW that it's all in my head, but eventhough i KNOW that, I don't like seeing zero results. So, I was telling him that I should only weigh in once a week, but that I'm too addicted to getting on the scale every morning to ever make it through a whole week. Well, he took it away. That's awesome. Now I have like this freedom of a number to tell me how to feel today. And, next week (Tuesday) when I weigh in again, I'll HAVE to have lost because I am doing everything right.
So, that's something kind of fun/weird/cool and exciting to look forward to.
This weekend I'm heading back to Grand Forks. I have a Pracs screening and I'm going to hang out with Nicole and some other friends. Don't worry, I don't even have interest to eat bad. If anything, I'll be annoyed if I don't get to hit the gym as much as I want, but otherwise I'll keep good. Why blow this WHOLE YEAR when I've been doing so great?? lol.
Okay, have a happy humpday!
Ash

weight: ? (i'll know next tuesday!)