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JOURNEY to HOTNESS ; )
Sunday November 12, 2006
Saturday November 11, 2006
Friday November 10, 2006
Thursday November 9, 2006
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(early morning I should say) I was talking to the soon2be ex, and we were talking custody of the kiddies, vehicles, money, and all that fun stuff. When we got off the phone I cried and cried, and cried. 
It was really hard for me, and I didn't get to sleep which is unfortunate because I go back to work and pull a 20-hour shift here in an hour.
BUT, I stopped and thought about it this morning and decided THAT'S it! I cried, got it out of my system. I'm done now. Why should I care anymore about that relationship that is now history? It was more than obvious on the phone that he couldn't care less, so why should I? If he is going to move on so soon, so shall I. 
I had a really bad break-up back in high school and I took awhile to get over it. I don't want that again. Nothing is going to change, nothing is going to get better if I dwell on it. So guess what? I won't. As of now, it's in my past, and staying there. You only live once, and life is short. I'm not wasting ANY MORE time thinking about what could've been, or HIM.
That 15lbs won't seem to come fast enough. I went the the gym this morning with the couple of hours I have off from work. I'm using them to shower and workout. Fun... lol. 
Then I don't have to worry about my little children and me. I'll know that we will be okay. It's gonna be hard to be on our own, but I can't be with a guy who wants to date other girls...
That was pretty nice! Maybe something sad should happen to me everyday... j/k
. I'm doing really well today. I woke up and didn't feel as badly as I expected I would. I actually felt pretty great. Those 5 miles did rid me of that evil pound. 
(haha pound! I beat you!) Now, I'm just excited knowing that this time next week I should be in the 150s!! Okay, yeah, I thought that last week too, but eventhough I wasn't losing weight, I was losing inches. I can tell. 
) to go to the gym, and I was really 'machine antsy.' I dont know if it's because I ran for a whole hour yesterday, but I only wanted to burn 100 calories at a time doing something, and then switch. (actually worked out nicely because it went super fast then!) So, I did 100 worth of regular level 9 elliptical. (that's my normal level these days), 100 calories going backwards on the elliptical (which I hate) 100 going forward again at level 10, then 100 at my STEEP-A$$ incline on the treadmill, then the same elliptical stuff. Kept me busy! 
I don't think I'll even get to work out. That'll suck. Oh well, we'll see I guess.
) My original goal was to be this sexy hot thing for when my hubby was gonna come back from his classes. He's still gone for another 5 weeks. BUT, I suppose I should re-analyze my goal. How about New Years? I'll work hard like a freak until New Years, and then I'll do it more calmly and much more slow and normal. Then I can start 2007 fresh, (and hopefully hot. 
) I guess my goal will be.... hmm.... New years is about, what? like 7 and 1/2 weeks away? We'll go with 7. In the next 7 weeks I want to lose 15 lbs. Not TOO ambitious, but definately work! Then I'll be 146 and feel great when that ball drops!
How crazy? Well, remember quite a few blogs back when I ran over 3 miles and was so excited, I made my new goal to run 5 by Dec. 15?? Well, I did. Five Miles. 
Wow. Where in the world did that come from? I had some serious inner strength I hadn't felt in a long time. I told myself when I got on that treadmill that I was either gonna run until my legs fell off, or until the treadmills maximum time ran out. Well, I went until the time ran out. An hour, so, 5 miles. I felt good, but not as elated as I would have if it would have been last week. But, it's still a pretty great milestone for me physically.
Leave pound, leave!
