So, I *MAY* have figured out how to deal with my overeating with Shane. So, that's good. I started getting really sarcastic and kind of rude when he'd bring things up. Even just today. We went to the store and he's like, "how can you say 'no' to cheesesticks" and I said, "it's easy when my clothes don't fit me anymore," (and I'm NOT unpacking my fat clothes, only keeping them for if I EVER get pregnant again one day). Then he'll say, "don't you want cheesy tots" (they're from Burger King and let me tell you SOOO yummy) and I'd say, "sure I want them, but I want everything, when's it EVER going to stop?" And then I just try to change the subject. It's working SO far and I'm about to be finished with Day 3 as I'm in the process of cooking up a healthy dinner.
Now, I have a new obstacle. I may have tackled this OTHER issue, but I have a different one. I'm a movie popcorn FANATIC. As in, I would go and get movie popcorn WITHOUT seeing a movie. Just walk in there, buy it, and leave, and eat it all night. I LOVE THE STUFF. AND, there's only been one movie in my life I haven't had with popcorn. It's kind of my weakness I guess you could say, and I might be going to a movie tomorrow. How do I deal with that??? What do I do? The smell alone is going to kill me. ARGH!!!! Help. Any advice would truly be appreciated.
Love ya'll

Weight: 163.6

Calories Burned: 1340 (that includes running 1.5 miles this afternoon and another mile at night...didn't know I could go that far so soon, guess SOME of my endurance is still there. )

Calories Consumed: 1540

Weight left to hit goal: 41.6 lbs

Time left to hit goal: 16 and 1/2 weeks

SO...it's been a little while, and I'm sorry. And to the, like, 2 people that read this, I apologise. Thing is, Easter weekend came and when your "competition" eats his brains out AND you have hardly any control over what you eat because you are visiting family and friends....well, things go badly. At least for me they did. SO...I gained...and what I'm really pissed about was that I didn't gain a "couple" of lbs, NO. Quite a few! I guess maybe that's what I needed to get my head in the game, but let me tell you: this has been quite the uphill battle for me. I live with someone that will offer me fun *gifts* if I cheat and eat bad. It's SOOO hard. BUT. One good thing??? I'm done with day 2 of eating perfect AND working out hard. This is the first time in the last few months that I've made it past day 2 still ok. lol. I was annoyed too because on Sunday I weighed in at...wait for it....it's BAD....169, BUT I told myself that I Lose fast and not to worry. Well, Monday I was 165, and so I felt a little better, but still ate bad cuz I still had loads of bad food in my house. (not a good excuse but once 4pm hits, I get all EXCUSE-CRAZY!!)...Then I did GREAT. Tuesday I ate great and burned a kick-@ss 1000 calories. I felt like I was back in it. I weighed in Tuesday morn and was 164.2. Then today I woke up excited to see if I dropped ANYTHING, even just 0.2 and I would have been motivated....NOPE. gained .4, which to me is basically half a pound. So, all day I was frustrated and annoyed, but oh well. Still ate great and hit the gym like a psycho. ALL I'm praying is that tomorrow I drop AT LEAST .4, just so I'm still not "up" from Tuesday. That would be REALLY ANNOYING!!! i usually gain REALLY fast and LOSE REALLY fast. Maybe my body is sick of me bouncing up and down on the scale, and you know what?? I don't blame it. I've been treating it like shit. Sometimes I think I should live on my own because WHENEVER I'm by myself I'm CRAZY healthy and active. It's with "Shane" that I get so tempted by comfort food...don't know what that's about...but I need to control it. So far, I'm 2 days down and many more to go. If anyone has any suggestions on how I can cope with the temptation that comes with eating tasty-ass comfort food with your best friend, please let me know. Cuz this sucks, and I need to learn how to control it.
love ya'll.
Ash

weight: 164.6 (BOO)

Calories Burned: 1000

Calories Eaten: 1450

Weight Left to hit goal: 42.6 lbs...scary

Time left to hit goal: 16 and 1/2 weeks. hmm

I am having a very good day so far!!
Anyone who reads this, have you ever seen "The Biggest Loser" from NBC?
I used to LOVE that show, when it's actually on.
WELL...Shane and I are going to do our own version of it, pitting us against one another.
The BEST part about this is I have so much added motivation because this boy loses weight crazy fast when he ACTUALLY tries, so I HAVE to keep on my game if I want to stand a chance...and I LOVE a challenge.
So...yea!!!
I'll keep you guys updated with our weekly weigh-ins and show you who has the lead and so on and so on.
We created this huge prize package and made it a 12 week long competition. I'll be honest, I geared some of the prizes to things I'd like because I KNOW I'm going to whip his ass!!! hehe.
But anyway...that's been my interesting day so far.
Love ya'll....off to the gym!!!
Ash

Weight: 160.6 lbs (my official 'start' competition weigh-in)
Shane's Weight: 217.2 (his official 'starting' weigh-in)

Calories Burned: (fill in later)

Wish me luck, NOT HIM. hehe.

So....boo.
I ate bad this weekend AND didn't work out.
What a terrible combination.
According to my weigh-in this morning, it appears as though I gained quite a few pounds....not cool...but I'm waiting a couple days because I might have been weighing in with 'water weight' because of all the salty food I had this weekend (can you say movie theater popcorn??? lots of it?)
So, here it is, April 2, Monday. I *feel* back on track and all that good stuff, but it's so discouraging to feel like i KEEP going the wrong way!!! lol
So, here I am. Going at this AGAIN.
boo. lol
Ash

Weight: 161

Calories Burned: (fill in later)

lbs to lose to hit goal: 39

Days left to hit goal: 17 weeks 6 days

So...aside from living with a person who wants to eat bad EVERYDAY, I'm about to face the other BIGGEST temptation!
My best friend in the world, Ms. Nicole (she's in alot of the pics I've posted) is coming out to visit me. I haven't seen her in about a month and a half and *eventhough* I told her to bring her gym clothes, I can't see how I'll get out of this weekend without eating bad. Partially because I have Shane here, so I don't need a sitter, there isn't much stopping me from going out drinking....and although sober Ashley will plan to drink only bacardi-diets or something, when tipsy Ashley comes out, she doesn't care what she drinks!!!
So...hmmm.
Well, if anything, I guess I can view it like this: I will probably eat bad, so each morning I'll just try to hit the gym extra hard. Then on Monday, when she has to go home I'll kick it back to good healthy gear.
Um. I guess that's way more realistic than just *hoping* to not eat bad at all...
Okay, hope everyone else has a good weekend! I know mine will be awesome!!!!
love ya'll
Ash

Weight: 157.6