Well, here I am up at midnight-thirty and I'm pretty bummed out. One of my vehicles decided to bum out on me, and I WON'T be able to make my trek tomorrow to see my friend. I was really sad, and when I called to tell her she was EVEN more sad. I felt terrible. Worst part was that there was nothing I could do. Another thing that sucks is now I can't do my Pracs screening OR study (bye bye $3,000), ALSO meaning that me not working out the last few days was all for NOTHING. Now, I HAVE NO CHOICE but to kick it up like a crazy person to try to overcompensate for missing out.
ALSO, (as if this wasn't enough) This means I can't just "go" to the gym and tell Shane to meet me there if I want, I'll have to wait til he comes home from work. That SUCKS. That opens me to temptation (and although I think NOW i'm fine, I like to AVOID those situations if I can help it.)
So...hmm. I guess I'll just keep concentrating on HOW BADLY I want to be in the 150 this week. I mean as of when I woke up, it was only 1.5lbs away. That shouldn't be too hard.
Okay, thanks for letting me vent.

ash

p.s. I took pics of my new playgym. I'll post tomorrow during my regular post. night.

Well, I didn't get to hit the gym on Saturday. I forgot that this place is WEIRD and they close their gym at 6 on a weekend. It was okay though, I ended up taking my daughter to a movie. Just her and I to relax and watch some 3d cartoon adventure. And I even had some popcorn. Surprising thing? I lost weight the next morning. Okay, so that wasn't SO surprising, but what really was is that I ALSO lost some THIS morning and I didnt' get to the gym yesterday either. Yesterday was intentional though. I signed up for another Pracs study (what I was doing back in Jan and Feb) and they tell you not to work out for 2-3 days before your screening because it raises your liver enzymes and then you can't be used for a study...

well... i'm not going to drive 4 hours away for them to tell me that! So, I didn't do anything yesterday and today I ONLY plan to go on a walk. But, I'm making sure that I'm keeping my eating in check to overcompensate. so far, so good. Then tomorrow is also my best friends bday. I'm not drinking no matter what, so that's no worry. Really, the only thing I have to make sure I do is not to over do dinner when we go out.

Okay, well, nothing else too new. I'm almost to 160, which is awesome! I'm going to be excited as hell to get back to the 150s, let me tell you!
Ash

weight: 161.4 lbs

Calories Burned: none, but will walk some later

Calories Eaten: 400 so far

Weight left to lose: 39.6 (finally not 40+ lbs!!)

but, barely anything.
I gained .2, and you know what? I'm STILL not faded by it. I just got my "womanly time" going and I KNOW that's all it is. It's so weird, cuz usually if I had a small gain and I knew I was doing everything right, I would get all frustrated and mad and annoyed. Not this time. In it for the long haul, and I'm being as realistic as I can. Besides, I don't NEED to watch the weight go down when I wake up feeling lighter and can TELL that my tummy is a little smaller, and as I see the peeking of definition coming back out in my arms and legs...
I will write more later after my LONG gym day. Love ya'll

Weight: 163.0

(will finish this out later)

So...usually on the weekend I get nervous because I lose some of my willpower and my brain will make excuses to why cheating "could be ok" and eventhough RIGHT now I wouldn't want to do it, AT ALL, for some reason at like 4pm on a lazy Saturday afternoon everything changes...I can't even explain it. BUT, this weekend I have no fear: Shane is going to have a friend over to watch playoff games (b-ball) and I'm going to let them watch the kids as I: hit the gym, go to the library for a running book I saw in my womens' health, and I want to walk as much as I can outside all alone to just RELAX and have some "ME" time. AND...best part? I might get to do this Saturday AND Sunday (playoffs ALL weekend.)
So, that's my hope and I can actually see myself in the 150s next week with no problem. I feel like I'm finally back in the right mentality (sp?) I just wish it wouldn't have taken so long! lol
One other cool thing, is that for the upcoming year until November I have TONS of motivational pitstops for wanting to get sexy and fit. My parents are coming to visit May 13th and I definately want to look NOT bigger! lol, Then June 8 is my sis's bday and she always has a huge party, then July 4th...nice out, mid-summer and bbqs everywhere! July 16th, my daughters b-day and you always want to look your best when you see family at a party, and then the GOAL DATE to wear a mini-skirt...Aug. 6, my b-day. Its great because all these dates are in such GREAT proximity to each other to be able to keep motivated and keep trying to get "fitter" from each point to the next. PLUS after my b-day I won't want to just throw it all in because for Halloween I want to dress skanky like ALL other little hotties do when they look great. I want that for once...and I want to be a Dallas Cowboy Cheerleader...now I just need to find someone to be my football player. lol. (shane said no, LOL)
Okay, well, enough of my rambling on and on, AND on. lol
love ya'll, and i'll write when I can this weekend, but hopefully I'll be super busy getting HOT!
Ash

Weight: 162.8 (did i predict that, or what??)

Calories Eaten: 740 (so far)

Calories Burned: 800 so far

lbs left to hit goal: 40.8

Time left to hit goal: 15 weeks 2 days!

Okay, so I'd say the gym feels like I'm totally back into it and it's a nice regular thing. (yea!) That's great! I also signed onto another weight-loss site (sparkpeople.com) for extra motivation. I like that it feels like myspace but for chubby people. You have a page you can personalize and it's a little more hands-on than traineo.

I'm still staying at traineo...but I like that the other one offers daily goals and you get these little dumb internet "trophies" for the more you do and so forth. (John, if you join there, you'll need to let me know. )
Well, today is April 19, so I run my 5k in exactly ONE MONTH! I'm trying to prepare for it by running EVERY time I work out and doing at least a mile and a half each time. (if I can with energy and all that). Starting Monday I'm going to time my "outside" mile. I say it like that because a treadmill is SO different than actually running OUTSIDE, so I want to be ready. I already mapped out a mile route from my house and back (actually where I walk my kids in their wagon after dinner. )

So, lets see. I weighed in this morning, and EVENTHOUGH it shows that I gained .2 I'm NOT worried at all! I think it's just because RIGHT before I went to bed I drank a whole bottle of water. So, I think it was just excess water weight, and I'm okay with that. My *hope* is that tomorrow I step on and it's UNDER 163. even 162.8 is ok with me. That's my hope anyway.

Okay, love ya'll!

Weight: 163.6

Calories Eaten: 1340

Calories Burned: 1050

Weight left to hit goal: 42.6