So...I should not be up typing right now. I really don't have anything interesting to say. I guess I'm just in a happy/good place and wanted to chit-chat a little (blogwise) about it.
Tonight I was trying on clothes for what to wear to my sister's b-day and I *might* be going to a friends wedding on Saturday (need to find a babysitter) so I was trying on clothes for that too. I had a dress that I've NEVER worn that Shane said looked the best. I also had some dress pants that haven't fit me in a LONG time that fit as well. I noticed that the two scales (yes, i have two, a cheap one that's downstairs and a pricey one upstairs)I have are 3 lbs off of one another. So...in other words the downstairs scale is telling me I'm 150 lbs. (this is the SAME scale that I used through my whole 2006 weight loss, so I FEEL like I'm 150 because this is how I remember it feeling!) lol...if that makes sense.
Anyway, I remember HOW crazy happy I was to be in the 140s and that was when I was weighing in on THIS SAME SCALE. In otherwords, I guess I just feel SOCLOSE to how I used to be. I feel stronger this time around only because I do more weight training, BUT, I feel like I'm only 5-7 lbs from what my lowest was before. That really makes me feel like I fell off the train and got RIGHT BACK ON driving faster than I expected.
I don't know. I guess I'm just in a good mood.
...now eventhough I have a scale that says I weigh less, I follow the pricier one. I don't know why. But...I still know I'm close. I can tell from which clothes fit. And you know what? It feels amazing.
....that's all i guess. :P
ash

Today I stepped on the scale and it actually made me happy! How often does that happen??!
So, I've decided I don't want to drink at my sisters' b-day. It will be hard because EVERYONE will be getting drunk and crazy and it would be a lot of fun, and my really good friends will be there, BUT...I can say that the "reason" i'm not drinking is to be a designated driver. No one gives THAT person shit for not drinking. I really don't want to "over-induldge" in bad food/drinks JUST because I get drunk and won't be so consious of it. Besides, I've noticed on the cheat days I have that one night of damage usually takes me the WHOLE week to undo.
I don't want that!
I'm not doing these killer workouts for one night out! lol
Now, this isn't to mean that I WON'T have fun later on in the year...just not now. I need to concentrate on being healthy and keeping it that way. Starting tomorrow I ONLY have 2 months left until my birthday~ that's going to light a fire under my butt! lol
Okay, well, that's about it for me. I'm about to go make myself an omelette. I usually use about 4-5 egg whites and 1 whole egg, then add an ounce of meat (yes, i actually measure) and some laughing cow cheese wedge (sucks it doesn't melt, but the outcome tastes great anyway). On the side I'll have strawberries and cantaloupe. What sounds better than that?? That sounds better to me than "cheat food"! lol.
Okay, hope you guys are having a good week. I am!
ash

weight: 153 lbs

calories burned: 1310

lbs left to hit new mini-goal: 2.2

time left to hit new mini-goal: 11 days (possible!!!)

Okay. Not only did I have a fabulous workout today, but then took the kids to the park and ran around like a crazy kid and i KNOW i burnt some good calories there! I wish our gym didn't close at 6pm on the weekends, that's so lame.
Anyway, ate great again today...I'm on a roll now, it feels. Next sticky-situation is Friday. My sis's b-day party. I'll see her and old friends, and well, alcohol. Don't know if I'll end up drinking. I haven't decided yet. I don't want to do anything stupid or embarrassing and I don't want to feel like crap the next day or scarf down too much food JUST cuz I'm drunk and won't care. Guess we'll see...
Okay, so time to set a NEW goal. I KNOW I can't make my sis's b-day goal of 151 because, well, I don't have much time left. So...new mini-goal.
On June 16th I have a family reunion-like thing I'm going to. These people haven't seen me since I 190ish.
THIS picture on the LEFT with my sister was ACTUALLY the last time these people saw me! So...I have already lost some pounds since then, but I wouldn't mind losing a couple more before then. Since it's on June 16th and it's already June 3rd, I don't have a ton of time, but mini-goals are easier than my full-blown b-day goal. If today I was 154.8 lbs, then BY the reunion, I'd like to be...um...150.8. How's that? It's in just shy of 2 weeks, so if I'm eating great and working out great, 2 lbs a week SHOULDN'T be too much to expect of myself. Hmmm. Guess we'll see what happens.
Okay, so there it is. New mini-goal. Hope everyone had a great weekend. I'm off to bed!
ash

weight: 154.8 lbs

lbs left for new mini-goal: 4

days left for new mini-goal: 13

URG.
So, I was having a happy last couple of days. A friend was moving so I scored a bunch of furniture that I've been needing. Then some family was giving up furniture too, so I scored EVEN more. Well, on the way out to see them Shane stopped at McD's cuz the kids were hungry and we had a 2 1/2 hour in front of us. I ordered a salad. With grilled chicken...and the snack walnut thing. yum. (that southwest salad was TASTY and I only needed like 1/4 of my dressing packet) Then for dessert, I got a fruit and yogurt parfait. I ended up coming up short on my calories for the day (only like 1000), then yesterday on the way back home we stopped at a gas station to grab lunch. they JUST marked down their items from the grill so I could have gotten burgers (any kind, bacon, swiss, stuff like that) for ONLY a buck.
Uh, yum. They also had these pizzas that were oozing with cheese and brats and stuff. Pretty much everything I like to munch on thats unhealthy. lol. WELL...i didn't eat ANY of that crap. I was looking everywhere for the slim fast shakes that they USUALLY have in the fridge parts of gas stations, but didn't see any. I ended up getting one of those sandwiches they sell in the dairy section. It had calories on it, (310) and i got turkey.(ONLY had white bread, which sucks cuz I only eat wheat) and some trail mix. Only ate half of my trail mix, and when I had my sandwich, I took off the cheese and added mustard for flavor. I was SO proud of myself that in TWO situations I COULD'VE eaten bad and eating good was actually HARDER...I felt SOOOO good about it afterwards. Then yesterday we did a bunch of unloading of the furniture and moving things around the house (talk about a workout!) and I hit the grocery store to stock up on more healthful food. So, I was on a "diet high" I'll call it, as I felt like FOR SURE I was going to be at the low end of 154 or MAYBE even the high end of 153...so this morning, I step on my scale and....GAIN. (not a huge gain, only .2, but when you expect a loss it KILLS you mentally!!!!!!!!!!!!!) ug. (oh, and btw: i was 154.6 on friday morning)
So...that was my weekend.
So, here I am, about 5 minutes I'm hitting the gym. One GOOD thing about the gain is I usually work EXTRA hard that time in the gym...so today will be a tough workout, but that's good. It's just annoying.
Ug. Oh well. (how many times am I going to say, "ug"?) I'm weird. Okay, well, that was my weekend. hope all is well.
Ash

weight: 154.8 (<---UG...there, said it again)

Calories Burned: *edited* 1050 (ran for half-hour again... )

lbs left to hit goal: 3.8

time left to hit goal: 5 days (not gonna happen)

So today I realized I hadn't posted in almost a week (oops!) but that wasn't on purpose, I've just been pretty busy. This weekend we had some friends over and played games and my diet did go a littly bye-bye for the weekend, but I really didn't do that bad considering I COULD HAVE. I also went and saw the new Shrek, so that didn't help my diet either. lol. That was more the cherry coke than the popcorn...I rarely have soda anymore, so when I did, it tasted EXTRA good. lol.
But, it's all okay. I'm still losing, it's just at a slower pace, and that's okay. I need to stop thinking with my usual "all or nothing" personality. Even 1 lb a week is still great! So, in that aspect, I'm fine. lol.
But anyway...just got back from the gym. I had a killer 3 hour workout today. Ug. My legs probably won't be able to get me out of bed in the morning, but my stamina is getting crazy good. Today when I ran my mile I didn't even feel it. That's good. I don't like that I'm becoming "used" to how it feels. I really like to "challenge" my body, if that makes sense. So, today I added in some cycling. I rarely do that usually because it takes SOOOOOO much longer to burn the calories BUT it makes my legs burn...and I figured the leg burn would be worth it. So...that'll have to be something I incorporate for a little while. I still need to go back to the gym tonight to strength train (can't do that in the playgym area...urg...miss my old one!) but...oh well.
okay, I need to go figure out my dinner. No clue what I feel like eating. Have a great day!
ash

weight: 155.6 lbs

calories burned: 2500 (i know, that's crazy, but when i went back to strength train, i was bored and did more cardio...)

lbs left to hit mini-goal: 4.6

days left to mini-goal: 9 (so, yeah, probably not going to hit my goal...but we'll see how close I can get. lol)