So....in a MILLION years, there are 2 things that I was pretty sure would NEVER happen. 1. David Beckham would realize I'm the girl of his dreams and he would offer to be my man-slave/servant. and 2. I would buy a bikini. Bikini by the way is TWO-PIECE. Everyone should know that, but I'm throwing that in for added effect. :)
Yesterday I had some time to kill. While driving out-of-town to visit Nicole (we hang alot, huh? lol) She had to work, so I had to keep myself busy. I went to a store on the base out there and they had tons of swimsuits on sale (and when I say sale, i mean like SALE, like THREE bucks for a cute ass swimsuit!) well, swimsuits are hard enough to find when you're paying the GOOD money and have all the special "lifting," "minimizing," "lengthening," etc...(girls know what I'm saying there...) BUT, i had nothing better to do, so I grabbed a few and to the changing room I went.
They fit.
But not only did they fit, I actually thought they looked really good. Granted, my tummy blows cuz of my pregnancies, it will always be ugly, but these suits ALMOST hide that flaw. Also...I have a VERY adequate, uh, bustline. Swimsuits are impossible to wear usually because tying these badboys back with a string bikini would never cut it, and usually things don't have enough support. Well, not yesterday. I felt like a was 13 again. The best part??? It's ONLY going to get BETTER!!!! Every day that I wake up is another day that I'm closer to being at my goal. It's so motivating!
Okay, so that was my bikini story. I could've cried. Special moment. lol.
New subject. Did I tell you guys what I want to dress up as for Halloween?? You know how Halloween, girls get to be skanky/cute? Well, I'm going to be a bumble bee. I found a kick-butt costume and thinks it's super hot, and I still have 2 and 1/2 months to perfect my legs and booty for it. I'll throw a pic on here so you can see. :) It's cute.

Okay, that's it for me for this weekend. I did some drinking again last night, but I was REALLY sensible during the day with eating, so i had ZERO gain!!! That's GREAT! :)
Have a great weekend!!!! love ya'll.
ash

weight: 140 when I woke up, BUT, i KNOW that by monday it'll be 130 something. I can feel it. :)

So, I hit the 130s this weekend! 139.4 to be exact. BUT...it was only my "morning after drunkeness" weight and I know from experience that it always gives me a pretty number and then the next day it's nowhere to be found. lol. I'm fine though, thing is we had a really busy weekend. (company over, 2 b-b-ques, going out partying) The fact that as of today, Monday, I've only had a .2 gain....I'm totally FINE with that. lol. I didn't eat bad on Friday, or Saturday. When they did the grilling, I had my chicken and broccoli, but on Sunday when we went to SOMEONE ELSE'S home for the bar-b-que, I wasn't able to be so picky with my food. So...that's why I probably had the gain today. But, since I KNOW that by the end of this week I'll be in the 130s and NEVER seeing the 140s again, that's enough to keep me happy!
Okay, well, tomorrow I do full body measuring, and I haven't in 2 months, so I'm interested to see what kind of inches are going away. OH, and in more big news on my happiness. :P .... Last night I wore jeans that I wore when I was only like 15. For the first time SINCE then. Woo-hoo there. :)
Ash

weight: 140.4

lbs left to hit goal: 5.4

time left to hit goal: 2 and 1/2 weeks
Oh, and since I just uploaded them, I'll throw in some pics from this weekend. The girl you guys haven't seen before is Jessica, we all hung out for the first time. I do need to stop hanging out with such skinny girls!!! LOL. j/k

OH...and on a side note. The shirt I'm wearing, I have the exact same type one in Blue that I wore last december at my going away party. Anyway, found the red one, but it was a size Medium NOT large, which i usually bought, and I was unable to wear the shirt until just recently. :)

I am SO close to the 130s, and it's exciting because I know that since I've been home I've been on a pretty good track. I had a couple of cheat meals, but that's exactly what they were. Not cheat DAYS (which is what I used to do ALWAYS). Thing is during a cheat "day" you can actually rack up enough calories to really get you to regret the whole thing. I, personally, eat WAY too much when I tell myself I can do what I want. It would kind of off-balance my whole eating schedule because then the rest of the week I'd feel like I was playing catch-up for the damage I did. I always read about people saying to do "just a cheat meal" and I would think to myself that I don't have that kind of will power because "I'll just let myself go, I know it". But that's no longer true. A big part of it is that I don't even really WANT to eat bad. I mean, yes, I do. It sounds good, it smells good, the idea of it is lovely, but the second it's in front of me my brain starts going, "if you eat that many cheesesticks, that's like an hour on the elliptical EXTRA, and that's ONLY for the cheesesticks" and I view my meal as a destruction to me getting to goal. So, this past week or so that I've been home, I did have pizza, mexican, and chinese. But each of those days I ate pretty simply thoughout the day to not OVEREAT at dinner, and like with the pizza and mexican: I just didn't eat THAT much because I knew that all I "really" want is the taste. And I'm NOT sacrificing pounds to get that! lol.
Was that long enough? Wow, sometimes I'm really long-winded. Anyway, that's it for me today. Eventhough I'm really close (just like with the 150s getting into the 140s) I'm not expecting to be there tomorrow. I'm just hoping by Monday. :) This new line of thinking where I don't care how fast I lose has also jump started things. It's hard to explain, but it's wonderful.
Okay, have a lovely day, I will. :)
ash

weight: 140.2

lbs left to hit goal: 5.2

time left to hit goal: 23 days

Well, for being my b-day...I haven't done bad at all. And I'm about to hit the gym as soon as I'm through writing this. I went to Paradiso (where you eat free on your bday, mexican food) and just kind of picked at my food. That wasn't intentional...I just got full really quick. Although I did share an order of sopapillas with Shane and the kids, that was probably the worst I did. Now Shane is back at work for his 12-hour shift and I'll probably make chicken and veggies for dinner. So, I shouldn't have a gain tomorrow...which is exactly what I would hope for. :)
I'm throwing in a couple of b-day pics that I just uploaded. I wore a black dress and then a skirt when I got back home because I forgot that I "swore" i'd wear a skirt today. lol.
By this time next month I'll be wearing skirts ALL the time because I'll be mid-ish to low 130s (here's hoping...) and I'll want to wear them all while I can because here in ND we have winter almost the whole year...so I have to do what I can before it gets too cold.
Okay, I'm gonna go now, while I'm still motivated to go run.
Thanks for the bday wishes (john) and have a good week everyone.
byes from this new 24 year old.
ash

weight: 142.0

i know that i haven't written as much as i'd like to, but i was having a pretty busy week. i got out of Pracs, and then nicole and i did our "first annual dress day" on that first saturday. then i spent the weekend at my sisters and her internet wasn't working. now, i'm back home and getting back into the routine of things. I was pretty pleased when I FIRST got out of pracs. I actually got down to 139 which is the 130s and has been a coveted goal of mine for what feels like FOREVER! But then just from "refeeding" myself this past week (in Pracs, I didn't eat that much) I've gained back a few lbs. I weighed in this morning and although it said 145, it didn't bother me because last night I had Pizza Hut, and I know that it wasn't my "real" weight if that makes sense.
Shane and I started another little competition because I guess NOW he's starting to really want to lose it. I won the last one by quite a bit, so I have no prob doing another one. I'll take easy motivation WHEREVER I can get it! We are only competing for 4 weeks, which will bring us to the 1st of Sept. My goal is to lose 10 lbs from today til then. That's not TOO crazy if you consider that I've been to the gym once in the last few weeks, and that I'm holding a couple lbs of water weight just from eating bad last night. So, that would be an awesome way to start Sept...in the middle of the 130s. If I get there, I'll be the smallest I've been in YEARS. And I mean MANY YEARS. That's an exciting aspiration all on it's own. :)
Oh, and when I went shopping this past weekend, I had lots of highs. Turns out I fit into a size 8 with no problem. I did have a couple of things that wouldn't fit well no matter how big the size was, and on the extreme opposite, i also DID fit into a dress that was a size 4. (almost bought it for that reason alone...but i knew it was a fluke). So...here I come 130s...
It's so exciting to know that by the end of this year I will be at my goal weight and just having to "maintain". something i haven't done since I was 14-15.
OH, and my b-day is Aug. 6...this upcoming Monday. BUT, Shane works 12 hour shifts and my family and friends don't live near me, so I probably won't even go out to eat that day: which means: no bad food. :P
love ya'll
have a great weekend.

weight: 145

lbs left to hit goal: 10

time left to hit goal: 4 weeks
Oh, here is a pic from Jordyn's b-day and another from my dress day. :)