You can now technically call me "mid 130s". A thought that to me implies being at a comfy weight and not looking chubby anymore. Me, not chubby? I still need to wrap my mind around that thought. Yesterday I went through my closet and there isn't a pair of pants, jeans, or skirt that DOESN'T fit me. I have these khakis that have been like my ULTIMATE goal pants since the day I bought them (like 5 years ago). They are perfect little khakis, but i've never worn them. Never got small enough. Got to a point once of being able to zip them up, but never any closer. Well, I put them on yesterday and they fit. Perfectly. These are a pair of pant that usually embody everything that I thought about myself, which can be summed up with this thought, "I'll get close, but never exactly where I want to be." And now, here I am. CLOSE to my goal weight (low 120s would be nice) and it's so WEIRD to know that i KNOW i am going to make it. For the first time in my life I feel like I have control with how I look and can keep it this way. It's actually quite exciting.
So, really quick to anyone who looks at this: sorry it's been awhile since I've written. I got into a VERY last minute Pracs study, and was unable to get on the internet while I was there. I check back in again next week for another week and then I get the nice little payout.
Okay, so I don't remember what my goal was, but in a couple of days it's September and I'm already in the 130s, so I'm happy.
My next big thing is Halloween. I'm sure people think I'm crazy because I'm so into Halloween, but this will be the first time I can get into the glitz and glam of a fun, sexy costume and feel good about myself. So, it's a big step for me, and I'm excited about it.
My goal for H-Day will be 125 lbs. I think that would be okay for my cute little costume idea, and I have about 2 months to get there, so it's no rush. Here I go...
Ash

weight: 136.4

lbs left to hit goal: 11.4

time left to hit goal: 2 months 1 day

Going camping this weekend, will post pics when I get a chance. Love ya'll!!!

So....in a MILLION years, there are 2 things that I was pretty sure would NEVER happen. 1. David Beckham would realize I'm the girl of his dreams and he would offer to be my man-slave/servant. and 2. I would buy a bikini. Bikini by the way is TWO-PIECE. Everyone should know that, but I'm throwing that in for added effect. :)
Yesterday I had some time to kill. While driving out-of-town to visit Nicole (we hang alot, huh? lol) She had to work, so I had to keep myself busy. I went to a store on the base out there and they had tons of swimsuits on sale (and when I say sale, i mean like SALE, like THREE bucks for a cute ass swimsuit!) well, swimsuits are hard enough to find when you're paying the GOOD money and have all the special "lifting," "minimizing," "lengthening," etc...(girls know what I'm saying there...) BUT, i had nothing better to do, so I grabbed a few and to the changing room I went.
They fit.
But not only did they fit, I actually thought they looked really good. Granted, my tummy blows cuz of my pregnancies, it will always be ugly, but these suits ALMOST hide that flaw. Also...I have a VERY adequate, uh, bustline. Swimsuits are impossible to wear usually because tying these badboys back with a string bikini would never cut it, and usually things don't have enough support. Well, not yesterday. I felt like a was 13 again. The best part??? It's ONLY going to get BETTER!!!! Every day that I wake up is another day that I'm closer to being at my goal. It's so motivating!
Okay, so that was my bikini story. I could've cried. Special moment. lol.
New subject. Did I tell you guys what I want to dress up as for Halloween?? You know how Halloween, girls get to be skanky/cute? Well, I'm going to be a bumble bee. I found a kick-butt costume and thinks it's super hot, and I still have 2 and 1/2 months to perfect my legs and booty for it. I'll throw a pic on here so you can see. :) It's cute.

Okay, that's it for me for this weekend. I did some drinking again last night, but I was REALLY sensible during the day with eating, so i had ZERO gain!!! That's GREAT! :)
Have a great weekend!!!! love ya'll.
ash

weight: 140 when I woke up, BUT, i KNOW that by monday it'll be 130 something. I can feel it. :)

So, I hit the 130s this weekend! 139.4 to be exact. BUT...it was only my "morning after drunkeness" weight and I know from experience that it always gives me a pretty number and then the next day it's nowhere to be found. lol. I'm fine though, thing is we had a really busy weekend. (company over, 2 b-b-ques, going out partying) The fact that as of today, Monday, I've only had a .2 gain....I'm totally FINE with that. lol. I didn't eat bad on Friday, or Saturday. When they did the grilling, I had my chicken and broccoli, but on Sunday when we went to SOMEONE ELSE'S home for the bar-b-que, I wasn't able to be so picky with my food. So...that's why I probably had the gain today. But, since I KNOW that by the end of this week I'll be in the 130s and NEVER seeing the 140s again, that's enough to keep me happy!
Okay, well, tomorrow I do full body measuring, and I haven't in 2 months, so I'm interested to see what kind of inches are going away. OH, and in more big news on my happiness. :P .... Last night I wore jeans that I wore when I was only like 15. For the first time SINCE then. Woo-hoo there. :)
Ash

weight: 140.4

lbs left to hit goal: 5.4

time left to hit goal: 2 and 1/2 weeks
Oh, and since I just uploaded them, I'll throw in some pics from this weekend. The girl you guys haven't seen before is Jessica, we all hung out for the first time. I do need to stop hanging out with such skinny girls!!! LOL. j/k

OH...and on a side note. The shirt I'm wearing, I have the exact same type one in Blue that I wore last december at my going away party. Anyway, found the red one, but it was a size Medium NOT large, which i usually bought, and I was unable to wear the shirt until just recently. :)

I am SO close to the 130s, and it's exciting because I know that since I've been home I've been on a pretty good track. I had a couple of cheat meals, but that's exactly what they were. Not cheat DAYS (which is what I used to do ALWAYS). Thing is during a cheat "day" you can actually rack up enough calories to really get you to regret the whole thing. I, personally, eat WAY too much when I tell myself I can do what I want. It would kind of off-balance my whole eating schedule because then the rest of the week I'd feel like I was playing catch-up for the damage I did. I always read about people saying to do "just a cheat meal" and I would think to myself that I don't have that kind of will power because "I'll just let myself go, I know it". But that's no longer true. A big part of it is that I don't even really WANT to eat bad. I mean, yes, I do. It sounds good, it smells good, the idea of it is lovely, but the second it's in front of me my brain starts going, "if you eat that many cheesesticks, that's like an hour on the elliptical EXTRA, and that's ONLY for the cheesesticks" and I view my meal as a destruction to me getting to goal. So, this past week or so that I've been home, I did have pizza, mexican, and chinese. But each of those days I ate pretty simply thoughout the day to not OVEREAT at dinner, and like with the pizza and mexican: I just didn't eat THAT much because I knew that all I "really" want is the taste. And I'm NOT sacrificing pounds to get that! lol.
Was that long enough? Wow, sometimes I'm really long-winded. Anyway, that's it for me today. Eventhough I'm really close (just like with the 150s getting into the 140s) I'm not expecting to be there tomorrow. I'm just hoping by Monday. :) This new line of thinking where I don't care how fast I lose has also jump started things. It's hard to explain, but it's wonderful.
Okay, have a lovely day, I will. :)
ash

weight: 140.2

lbs left to hit goal: 5.2

time left to hit goal: 23 days

Well, for being my b-day...I haven't done bad at all. And I'm about to hit the gym as soon as I'm through writing this. I went to Paradiso (where you eat free on your bday, mexican food) and just kind of picked at my food. That wasn't intentional...I just got full really quick. Although I did share an order of sopapillas with Shane and the kids, that was probably the worst I did. Now Shane is back at work for his 12-hour shift and I'll probably make chicken and veggies for dinner. So, I shouldn't have a gain tomorrow...which is exactly what I would hope for. :)
I'm throwing in a couple of b-day pics that I just uploaded. I wore a black dress and then a skirt when I got back home because I forgot that I "swore" i'd wear a skirt today. lol.
By this time next month I'll be wearing skirts ALL the time because I'll be mid-ish to low 130s (here's hoping...) and I'll want to wear them all while I can because here in ND we have winter almost the whole year...so I have to do what I can before it gets too cold.
Okay, I'm gonna go now, while I'm still motivated to go run.
Thanks for the bday wishes (john) and have a good week everyone.
byes from this new 24 year old.
ash

weight: 142.0