It's been 2 weeks since I've been able to write! Many things have gone on between now and then. I'm in Pracs for the last day, I get out tomorrow morning...hello money! I have no idea how much I weigh, but I've been very careful the whole time I've been in here, so it'll be interesting to see what the scale says this weekend. I'm actually pretty excited to weigh myself. lol.
Before I checked into Pracs here, I celebrated my daughters Bday at McDonalds. We had a pretty good turnout, and it was her first "real" party that she *might* be able to remember bits and pieces of one day. I made her a cheeseburger themed cake (I did have a slice...but for dinner I have eaten a salad, no dressing, and parfait...so I figured I'd be FINE.) After the cute little party, we took her to see that rat movie. I don't know how to spell it, barely know how to say it, but my now 4 year old can. lol.
Lets see, what else? This weekend will be really exciting! On Saturday Nicole (best friend) and I will be celebrating "Dress Day" as we call it. We are both going to get all dressed up, get pictures together, go play mini golf, bowling, movies, and then go out dancing later in the evening. It's kind of a day thats a merge of our bdays (mine is aug sixth! wow)...but I don't think I'll get all calorie crazy...I'm too close to all my goals now. I can FEEL it. And, I don't want to mess that up. Once I can just get into the damn 130s, things will just seem so simple. I won't care how slow I lose the weight at that point, because I'll just be so damn happy to not be gaining and be at a good place weight wise.
Okay, well, this wasn't as longwinded as I expected. Hope everyone is having fun, love ya'll!
Ash

weight: ...no clue. we'll find out soon... :)

There was a 7-7-07 in this month and a friday the 13th (my mom pointed that out to me) but I am concerned with 7-16. That's my daughters b-day. We are going to have it at a McDonalds (she loves the place, and doesn't get to eat there too much, AND it has a playland for when the kids get antsy) Anyway, last few time I went to McDondalds I actually got a salad, so i have NO worries about that, BUT I am making her a cake (in the shape of a cheeseburger, no doubt! matches the place and will be fun...if it turns out i'll post pics, otherwise i'll just bring cupcakes. lol) I like to eat sweets. I NEVER looked at myself like a "sweets" girl, cuz I always liked chips, pretzels, salty stuff (POPCORN!), but I also saw myself have WAY too much cheesecake, candybars, and ice cream back in March and April.
So...If I make the cupcakes, cool, I'll have one and life will still be okay and normal. But if the cheeseburger cake works out, that's a three-tier cake, i'd have to have a TINY slice...oh well. We'll see what happens. Tonight is movie night. I love taking the kids to movies now that they like cartoons and John can sleep half of it, and Jordi will watch the whole thing. Popcorn always comes into mind, but I haven't had ANYTHING bad today at all, and Shane was trying to get me to get those P-Zones from Pizza Hut (yum) but then he fell asleep...so I probably won't eat bad..which is AWESOME. :)
Then after the movie, I'll hit the gym. I probably won't get to write much this weekend, then Monday I'll check back into Pracs...so i'll probably get to you guys then. Have a safe weekend, a fun Friday the 13th, and i'll talk to you later!
Ash

weight: find out this weekend, was last 146.2 lbs

lbs to hit mini-goal: 7

time to hit mini-goal: 3 and 1/2 weeks

So, I know I already posted earlier today...but I was just gonna put up a new picture and an old picture. I was looking at my buddies myspace page and she put up pics from this past weekend and one was of her and I squished together super quick for a pic. When I actually saw it on her page moments ago, I was shocked, because I just realized I have a chin again! lol. I've had a round round face for so long, it's interesting to notice changes that you don't expect. I'm short and I have a "rounder" face, which has me appear thicker than usual so I've always felt the need to be a little smaller to over compensate (not that I've actually been smaller for a long time) but it's exciting to know that cool changes are happening and are only going to get better. This weekend I wore this little pink mini-shirt with a tight white shirt and some flip flops...my sis kept telling me she was annoyed how adorable I looked. Now...I try to not do the "conceited" thing, because I don't like when other people act like that....but I'm excited to get SUPER adorable. It's just so fun to have this transition and this new found confidence that I was starting to get back in December and I should have NEVER gone in the wrong direction...but here I am back at my fighting weight from back then...and I know it can only get better.
It's exciting. :)
OH...and these pics are embarrassing, but 2 are ones of me about 195 lbs and the new ones are from last weekend and the weekend before (new skirt weekend!)
Below...full body chubby...in San Antonio. Was super fun, but could've been way better had I been in better shape!


Here is (almost) full body from the other weekend in my new pretty summer skirt. Sorry for the bad pic...was using a bathroom mirror.


Here are facial differences. This first one is from the same day as the chubby body shot, but I feel gross and bad for my old self when I look at this:


And here's the one that made me pretty happy just from this past weekend- you'll see why I was excited to have a slimmer chin!!! lol


Okay, that's it for me tonight....have a great week everyone!
love ya'll
Ash

I know it's been a little over a week, but I didn't have internet all weekend, and so now I'm just getting to catching you guys up. Man do I like to go on a spiral! When I got out of Pracs I had some bad food, but then some more when I got home, and some more....not so hot. Then I remembered how this happened last time and how I had SO much self-discipline at Pracs and I need to get my butt back in a routine before EVERYTHING gets out of control like it did for basically all of March and April. And that was NOT FUN getting all the way back here. And besides, I want to get "smaller", not just "maintain". So, here I go.
Around the corner here is my daughters birthday...She'll be 4! That's so old to me! Scary.... then I check into Pracs and when I get out it will be MY b-day one week later. (I know I won't hit my goal for my b-day, but being in the 130s would be okay with me). So, I ONLY really need to avoid some bad food on kiddie's b-day and then it's off to easy Pracs for a couple weeks.
Well, that's it for me, gonna chow down on my oatmeal now.
Ash

weight: 146.2 (as of Sunday, trying not to weigh in til next Sunday)

goal: 130s....so 7 lbs to go in 27 days

Calories Burned: 800

So...I was a little blasted the last time I typed. Oops. lol. I was going to go and delete the whole thing, but on second thought figured it was something I can look back and laugh at later.
So...I did eat "bad" that day with the alcohol and I'm sure I'm still paying for it lbs-wise with the scale...but it doesn't bother me because I LOOK and FEEL smaller. The scale could say 160 this morning and it wouldn't have mattered because I feel pretty great!

So...doubt I'll make my 4th of July goal since that's 3 lbs away and the day is only 2 days away. (not unheard of when starting to eat really strict...but I'm doubtful). So...on to my new mini-goal!
Right now I'm 148. I leave again for Pracs in exactly 2 weeks. So I have 2 weeks to bust my butt and lose as much as I can before going to Pracs where I have no gym or control over food....hmmm. Let's go for 6 lbs. I know that sounds like a bit much, BUT I haven't been to the gym in 3 weeks, and I'm hoping that the sudden strict eating will make things come off a little easier...so that's what I'm aiming for. We'll see what happens. :P
Okay. Hope everyone had a safe weekend.
Ash

weight: 148

lbs left to hit mini-goal: 6

time left for mini-goal: 2 weeks

calories burned: (hitting gym tonight)