Here it is a Friday. Wow has this week just FLOWN by. I feel like it should still be Tuesday or Wednesday. I think it's just because since I got back into eating well and working out, that it's flying by because I have such a tight schedule of when I eat and work out every day.
I got a comment that I was aiming to lose too much weight for my next mini-goal on April 13th. I just want to say that I KNOW that what I put was really ambitious and the ONLY reason I thought it would be remotely possible is because I'm eating all natural and LAST time I did this the first 10 lbs fell off pretty quickly. That's all. That's why I also wrote right after that I'd be happy with 155...I'm just going to strive following out my all-natural diet and kicking my ass in the gym. And with that, usually I lose a little more than normal. That's all. Thanks for the concern though..
I don't plan to have another relapse (can i call it that?) after I see my parents. I'm only going to see them for a day, and after that I'll be right back home in my gym habit and everything. Besides, like I said, my sis will be having a HUGE b-day party on June 8, and I'll want to keep myself going so that maybe I can wear something cute there.
I guess I feel like I just have a different outlook now. (I haven't cheated ALL week, btw, that's a first for a LONG time). I've had SO many types of yummy food. I've had pizza, fries, cookies, starbucks, etc, etc...I've done it all. Until I hit my goal I'm eating to live, not living to eat. I'm doing this to fuel my body and taking away the *fun* aspect because FAR too often I would use food FOR fun and celebrations and stuff like that. That was always my downfall. I no longer eat in front of the tv (eventhough I barely watch tv, so that'd be hard anyway) and I'm concentrating on (here comes a corny saying...watch out!) being the best that I can be. That's all.
So, here we go into the weekend. And although I have no real plans, I know I'll be okay because I don't want the *enjoyment* that comes out of eating guilty food and watching dumb mindless shows on tv---I want the enjoyment out of knowing that I ran a mile outside (which I'm gonna try tomorrow...I keep putting off, trying to get my endurance better before I attempted it) and knowing that I'm being good to myself and my body.
Wow, did that sound warm-and-fuzzy enough? ...Okay enough of that for me. lol...have a great weekend!
Ash

Weight: 159.4

Calories eaten: 600 so far

Calories Burned: none yet, gym in an hour

lbs to lose for goal: 7.4

time left for goal: 16 days

So, here I made it back into the 150s...That's GREAT. But more than that, because I feel like I'm FINALLY in control and I'm doing so well, I know I HAVE to hit my goals. Because the only one stopping me is me. Today when I was on the treadmill I was imagining myself in a few months. Smaller, tighter, more confident. I was imagining the cute clothes that I'd be able to wear and how I could just throw on skirts or shorts without even thinking. I will be able to wear halters or tank-tops because my shoulders and arms will be nice and toned. I basically just got myself all pumped up.
I wish I would've realized all this back in January before I began the horrible trend in the wrong direction...and I was so close....but that's ok. It's not THAT far away. And when I remember that I've come from 226 originally, it makes me feel THAT much more accomplished. Everyone has set-backs. And this probably won't even be my last one. But, it's definately the last one where I lose sight of keeping myself healthy.
Hope everyone is having a great day...
Ash

Weight: 159.4 (will get those "160" pics up soon)

Calories Burned: 940, and about to strength train

Calories Eaten: 1300 (not much...but I didn't have a big appetite today)

Weight left to hit mini-goal: 7.4 lbs

Days left to hit mini-goal: 17 days

I am writing a lot later than I usually do during the day. But, that's okay. I had 2 really good last couple workouts. Yesterday I did an hour of steep incline on the treadmill AND THEN ran over two miles. I just didn't want to stop. I only did because my little boy pooed himself and Shane really wanted to go...but I kept saying, "2 more minutes," and then, "2 more minutes," again. I had lots of energy yesterday....so that was a good way to feel going back to they gym!
I just ate dinner and am about to go for what I *like* to do nightly: which is a simple mile walk around my neighborhood pulling the kids in a decked out wagon.

The weather FINALLY got nice here lately, although late at night or early in the morning it can still be around the 30s, which in my opinion is just CRAZY, but then again it snowed here in April...so anything can happen.
I just weighed in this morning and was plesantly surprised. I knew I would have a loss, but I didn't know it'd be such a good one, and now I CAN TELL that I'll be in the 150s tomorrow. I just feel it, which is AWESOME. I hate having to do all this ALL OVER AGAIN, but hopefully that will be my incentive to keep it sticking this time. I NEVER want to see the 160s again after tomorrow! Goodbye to them!
Okay, that's it for me. Love ya'll!
Ash

Weight: 160.2 lbs

Calories Burned: 1050

Calories Eaten: 1550

I'm going to break-up my goals. Everyone know that I want to be 122 ish by my b-day, but since I have so many "pitstops" as I called them, I'm going to call those my "next goals" since the timelines are shorter. I hope that made sense. Well, my next one is Mothers' Day, which is when I meet up with my family in Fargo. I haven't seen my parents in almost a year and the last time they saw me I was 195...so I'd love to be about 150 by then. That's in 18 days, so I know 8 lbs is REALLY ambitious for 2 and 1/2 weeks...but that's what makes it a goal! I'll be okay with 155, but I'm going to aim for 152.

So...Weight left to hit goal: 8.2 lbs

Days left to hit goal: 18

So, in a couple hours I'll be heading off to the playgym again. I haven't been since Friday. Ugh. I HATE that feeling when you feel like it's going to be an extra-tough workout JUST because you haven't done anything in awhile. Boo.
Oh well.
Like I said, I will post pics of the playgym I go to here. It's MUCH smaller than my other one, and the toys that are there are the ones I BRING each time. Otherwise they just have a table, playhouse, and tv. I usually wouldn't be that bothered by the fact that there aren't many machines (2 bikes, 2 treadmills, 2 ellipticals, and a stairstepper that NO ONE does)...EXCEPT that people with NO kids are ALWAYS coming in to work out in the SMALL space and then you get screwed on which machines you can use. Eventhough "people with kids have priority" (and there's a sign) NO ONE pays attention to it. And, I'm not going to go up to some lady running and say, "Hey, I want to get on the treadmill, and you have no kids, so bye"...I can't do that. Urg.




Oh well.
lol. Okay, well, that's it for me today. I'm hoping to get down in the 150s this week. Right now, I'm the same as I was yesterday. It's starting to get nice again because I know the number on the scale and my waist can ONLY get smaller...so that's good. :)
Ash

Weight: 161.4

Calories Eaten: 1750

Calories Burned: 1050

Weight left to hit goal: 39.6

Well, here I am up at midnight-thirty and I'm pretty bummed out. One of my vehicles decided to bum out on me, and I WON'T be able to make my trek tomorrow to see my friend. I was really sad, and when I called to tell her she was EVEN more sad. I felt terrible. Worst part was that there was nothing I could do. Another thing that sucks is now I can't do my Pracs screening OR study (bye bye $3,000), ALSO meaning that me not working out the last few days was all for NOTHING. Now, I HAVE NO CHOICE but to kick it up like a crazy person to try to overcompensate for missing out.
ALSO, (as if this wasn't enough) This means I can't just "go" to the gym and tell Shane to meet me there if I want, I'll have to wait til he comes home from work. That SUCKS. That opens me to temptation (and although I think NOW i'm fine, I like to AVOID those situations if I can help it.)
So...hmm. I guess I'll just keep concentrating on HOW BADLY I want to be in the 150 this week. I mean as of when I woke up, it was only 1.5lbs away. That shouldn't be too hard.
Okay, thanks for letting me vent.

ash

p.s. I took pics of my new playgym. I'll post tomorrow during my regular post. night.