So...aside from living with a person who wants to eat bad EVERYDAY, I'm about to face the other BIGGEST temptation!
My best friend in the world, Ms. Nicole (she's in alot of the pics I've posted) is coming out to visit me. I haven't seen her in about a month and a half and *eventhough* I told her to bring her gym clothes, I can't see how I'll get out of this weekend without eating bad. Partially because I have Shane here, so I don't need a sitter, there isn't much stopping me from going out drinking....and although sober Ashley will plan to drink only bacardi-diets or something, when tipsy Ashley comes out, she doesn't care what she drinks!!!
So...hmmm.
Well, if anything, I guess I can view it like this: I will probably eat bad, so each morning I'll just try to hit the gym extra hard. Then on Monday, when she has to go home I'll kick it back to good healthy gear.
Um. I guess that's way more realistic than just *hoping* to not eat bad at all...
Okay, hope everyone else has a good weekend! I know mine will be awesome!!!!
love ya'll
Ash

Weight: 157.6

Know what I'm about to do? Cut out pictures of hotties, AKA girls in cute clothes to tape to my fridge and pantry. I usually do this when I find myself REALLY wanting to eat bad, and it has always helped. Tonight I almost didn't work out, turned on the tv and saw that damn "dallas cowboy cheerleader" tryout show. That damn show made my ass go to the gym!!! lol And guess what I watched? That and "girls next door" on E! while I ran and climbed the 15% incline on the treadmill. Phew...
Now I'm glad I got a good workout in. Eventhough it's midnight fifteen and I'm now too wide awake to hit the sack...I'm still pretty happy.
Besides, I have hotties to cut out.
....it's just more motivation to show me WHY I want to look the way I WANT to look for my B-day. I've never been THAT girl. THAT girl that can wear anything she wants. That can go into a store and see a shirt or jeans and say "I want that!"
That's what I want now. While I'm still young enough to do it!
I'm SO short that I look heavy easily if I wear the wrong thing. I don't want to have that problem anymore.
Everyday, I'm a day closer. :)
Okay, have a good night, love ya'll
Ash

Weight: 157.2

Calories Burned: 700

lbs to lose for goal: 35.2

Days left til goal: 18 and 1/2 weeks.

Really? I didn't post in almost a week again??
Sorry. My weekend kind of got the time away from me. (I didn't gain any weight! Don't worry! just didn't get to blogging!)
Thanks John though for keeping me on my toes. lol
AND for reminding me to sign up for a race again. This time (barring some horribly depressing day of pain and self-loathing) I will DEFINATELY go!
It's May 19th and it's the "Fargo Marathon". It has everything from a 26 mile run, a 13 mile run or a 5k (little over 3 miles) run. SINCE I'm just getting back into this whole thing...I'm opting for the 5k. But, I still want to run the whole thing and I need to rebuild my endurance like crazy!
So, I have some work ahead of me.
Anyway...
I already made a goal this week (150s! yeah!) So, that's pretty awesome. I just need to keep up my momentum and motivation and all will be great!
love ya'll
Ash

Weight: 157.8 lbs

Calories Burned: (hitting the gym in a couple hours)

Time left to hit goal: 18 weeks, 5 days

Lbs left to hit goal: 35.8

So, I worked out the last couple days and here it is, Day 3 and I haven't worked out yet.
So, at 1147pm, since I'm incredibly AGAINST going to bed with ZERO workout for the day, I'm about to go for a run outside. A real run. The first one I've ever attempted. I'm going to throw a new battery in my mp3 and pray that it works and I can drift off into my music as my feet hit the ground. (my mp3 wouldn't turn on the other day...don't know if it was battery or if it gave up on life, cuz it's kind of old. will find out soon here...)

I had a question about my height.
I am 5'2". Short little girl. That's why to be in the 120s wouldn't be crazy for my stature. BUT, I had no problem when 3 years ago I was low 130s...I don't care where I end up. I just want to wear a mini-skirt! lol I just like to keep goal "numbers" and tabs on myself. That's how I get myself being more dilligent.
My CHARTS are working for me. Every day has a section that needs to be checked for "cardio" "arms/back" or "legs/abs" and then I grade myself on how I ate and/or worked out. Plus, daily weigh-ins. I'm noticing that when you live with other people that want to cheat EVERYDAY, it's good to have a CONSTANT eye on yourself. And tonight I couldn't bear to put that I DIDN'T work out. That's why I'm about to go for a run!!
See, accountability is back to working for me!
I would also like to go ahead and set a weekly goal. This time next week. (next Thursday) I'd like to be back to running a mile and a half (lost SO much endurace...and want to start back slow) AND would like to be in the 150s. That's not TOO demanding considering my weight right now! hehe.
Anyway, I'm off for my run. (want to get out of the house before it's midnight...) But, love ya'll!...and i'll write more tomorrow!

Weight: 161.6

Calories Burned: 200

Weight to lose til goal: 39.6

Days left to hit goal: 4 and 1/2 months

Okay. So, I thrive on time-tables. Time-lines. On having a set amount of time for something and 'budgeting' that time.
Now, I wasn't going to place a goal on myself right now, because I've been so lazy getting back into this, but screw it! I need a countdown! That's how I work! lol
So, here's the thing. I want to be able to wear a mini-skirt. (ok, regular skirt would be nice, but i want to get the killer legs for the small version too) :)
So, I was thinking, I don't know how much I would need to weigh to be able to wear a mini...but I think it's somewhere in the 120s. (that's where i was at 15 ish, and I remember wearing anything I wanted). REMEMBER; at anytime if I feel I am getting TOO small, I will stop losing weight! Ashley here is ALL about having sexy curves in her mini-skirt, otherwise, what's the point? But I need a point of reference. Lets go with...122. (only because it's an even number from where I am right now.)
122 by August 6.
August 6 is my 24th b-day, and what better day to show/flaunt what you worked your ass off to get than on your birthday??!!
So there it is!
I'm getting excited now. I can feel the rush of having a goal coming back to me. The feeling of each day being one day closer...
That's 19 and 1/2 weeks away. Almost 20...
So, here it goes. I'm excited, and look forward to being a hot little 24 year old, if I can try! lol

Ash

Weight: 162.0

Calories Burned: 500

Time left to goal: 138 days

lbs to lose to hit goal: 40